Saturday, October 23, 2010

Rebellion is brewing...

So I had my surgery.  Here's me recovering

Here's me on day 3...
Here's my story.  I traveled to Bali to teach Yoga to a bunch of executives from E!  After I got my $3 million for the guest appearance during which I was worshipped and offered my own gig I went for a dip in the warm pool right off my bedroom.  Here I am meditating in gratitude for my great fortune.
Because I was buzzed from morning margaritas, I fell in by this lotus flower and a leech attached to my collarbone.  I'm home now and for the life of me I can't get it off.

I wish.

I will likely have a 'large, ropey' scar left from this round of skin cancer surgery since women make thicker more keloid scars on their trunks.  What the hell!?!?  Later I will have steroids injected into the scar to settle it down.  Does that make you squirm?  It does me.

AND

I have to have more surgery on my face.  That cute round bandaid in picture 1 is from a biopsy that came back positive for more deep skin cancer.  Hopefully, THIS IS IT.  And I can move on to the plastic surgery to repair the scars on my forehead.  I will look fabulous from the eyebrows up.  It's something.

All this said.  I am feeling very rebellious now.  Looking for a respectable, ethical, moral and legal way to live out loud.  So yesterday I was at home alone - which NEVER happens and I cranked up the tunes and danced around my house like I was 25 again winning a dance contest which DID happen (unlike the Bali fantasy).  Chicken.  I was alone.  Next I need an audience.

In the spirit of living in the moment and being a little crazy - I was thinking about getting my belly button pierced.  I have done away with the tattoo idea (too much commitment involved).  What's rebellious to you and would you do it?   

4 comments:

Meg said...

Grrrr, I hate skin cancer. I had this same surgey on my collar bone and I had Moh's on my face. I just had a visit to the derm. on Thursday, blah! Thankfully, this all passes. I wish I would have thought about dancing by myself, that sounded refreshing!! This shall pass...hang in there!

amy said...

doing things my own way instead of how other people tell me to do them...that's about as rebellious as I get, but just that little bit is liberating...

ShutUpandRun said...

Ropey scars, band aids, rebellion. All of this makes you all the more beautiful and YOU. Everyday I think you are becoming more authentic and owning your backbone that much more. Love you sister.

oakley said...

Like this line;

In the spirit of living in the moment and being a little crazy - I was thinking about getting my belly button pierced. I have done away with the tattoo idea (too much commitment involved). What's rebellious to you and would you do it?